CRAFT-MAMA-TRON!
I have waited too long to start writing again. Today couldn't feel better. The sun is warm and bright. Sweet Hannah fell asleep on the walk back from the Market and was content to keep napping when I put her down on the bed. Clementine sits besides me chewing on a rubber duckie, making the cutest little cooing noises. And Pamela looks beautiful today; there is something about those charming lips, all darkened with lipstick, they get me everytime!
I'd like to know the amount of time I've written about being on the precipice of change. It is almost like the very thought of changing has haunted me and I have chosen to sit and wait -- waiting to see 'if' I am going to change with life, or if I am going to continue being the same while my situation changes. Last night some friends asked me if I am happy. I told them that I feel like I'm 'almost' happy. What is that? If I am close to happiness, isn't that good itself?
I keep waiting for that morning when I begin feeling whole again, as if we actually experience feelings of wholeness! This life change has already begun.
So for the new changes here:
name change: to CRAFTMAMATRON (think cute robot with tits, an apron, and a pair of scissors!).
blog change: more pics, more talk about the saucy crafting pam and i do all the time!, more talk in general!, more gushing about buffy!
life change: using a calendar, thinking about using a budget, taking time to have some perspective on things (even if that can only happen with the help of some intoxicants now and again!),
