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A moment of nothing with you has always been my choice over a lifetime of everything with someone else. I'm not trying to fool anyone with any enlightened talk of non-attachment. The grasping is quite phenomenal, actually, but honestly I'm willing for it. That's always why this situation has been rather suspect in terms of its role in my path toward spiritual realization. Sometimes, when I look at it objectively, I feel like I could turn it around. It seems possible that I could simply choose to be in each moment with you without grasping; that I could transcend our samsaric cycle and make my choice out of some kind of wisdom. I'm learning not to ask you for a definition, and better yet, I'm learning that maybe it's better to leave things undefined.