ignorance
I'm starting to digest the insanity of that whole Padma situation. From an objective perspective the insanity has long been obvious, obvious before it even began, really. But from the insider's perspective it just seemed like there were issues and what was it that I learned in Shambhala? Everything is workable. How I let that bit of dharmic wisdom serve me while I ignored all the rest. Abandon all hope of fruition. ...the ambush of hope.
Oh, sigh, Norbu needs me. On the positive, an excellent opportunity to learn to let go of the outcome.