combustible
I've been busy. Too busy to think those deep inner thoughts of mine, let alone share them. I'm partly busy with my geek stuff, as my ability to program has really taken off over the past couple of weeks. I'm starting to understand things that I swear I've been trying to understand for years.
I've also been spending a fair amout of time vacillating between fighting with Padma and appreciating him as the best thing that's happened to me since Buddhism. That said, the padma thing is draining at times. Every time Padma pushes me away approximately 37.7 seconds after pulling me close I want to call Eric and apologize for all the blood red tears I spilled into our sea of vajra blue and karma green. I can see why padma is red; it's combustible. However, my own padma tendencies find me loving Padma's energy as much as it drives me crazy beccause I want to push and pull him, too.